It's been exactly 4 weeks today since my husband and I said our vows and tied that knot. So that makes it 4 weeks of Out Of Control binging as well. And in those 4 weeks I have not only felt disgusted with myself on a daily basis , but I've also gained around 15lbs... Yes, I know that's nuts. I also know a lot is water weigh but seeing an increase that high after finally checking the damage on my terrible habits these past few weeks is a nasty slap in the face.
The past year or so my journey has been about looking fantastic at my wedding....check!
So now I'm thinking I need to switch over my mindset out of wedding and onto the remainder of my life. My goals have not changed. I still want to rock a one digit pant size, I still want to get out of the "overweight" range. And of course there is a number id love to see... But most of all I just want to be healthy and fit. I want this for me. I want this for my family. I will get through this rough patch.
If anyone ever tells you that losing weight is easy slap them right in their lying pie hole. Everything about losing weight is hard. Saying no to the foods you want is hard. working out daily is hard, seeing slow to no progress is hard, starting over is hard. But most of all being overweight is hard. I'm
Choosing to not give up on what I want.. What I deserve. I will continue on this journey,
It's going to be tough getting back into the swing of things. What's done is done.. All I can do is recognize that I've gone and slipped back into my
Old habits and make the decision to knock that shit off. ... No one is perfect all the time. This binge might have been way longer than it should have been, but I'm not giving up on my goals that easily. It's not about the fact that I binged.. It's about the will to get back on track. That in itself is progress from the days where "binging" was my daily life and there was no stopping in sight. Time for that first step back on the right direction.
