This Is Never Going To Be Over.

My family and I went on a 12 day trip to Colorado recently and in terms of weight loss it totally screwed me.. scratch that I screwed myself.  Of course not having a kitchen means eating out Morning, noon, and night.  Now I Could have made better choices.. I could have had smaller portions, and I could have worked out everyday..But I didn't.  I ignored the little voice in my head saying "this isn't a good idea..think of your ass!"  But still I shoved burgers, fries, coke, pizza, Chinese, Beer and whatever else I wanted in the moment right into my pie hole. Now here I am.. up 9 LBS!! 9 freaking pounds. I'd love to say "I'm shocked! I have no idea how this happened!" But that just isn't true.. I did this. No one else.. Me.  I did this to myself.  Did it taste good at the time?  Hell yes it did!  Am I regretting it now?  That's another big ol Hell yes I am!   Not only have I gained weight but I've also been flat out stuffing my face with way to much food that now my body wants big meals again. Guess what body?  Your not getting them starting today! 

Everyone slips up (at least that's what I tell myself).  I still have a goal ahead of me.. that goal is to be healthy. This experience is a smack in the face saying that it will never be over. I will never be able to eat whatever i want, whenever i want, and still look the way I want to. That is the very sad truth. Some people can eat whatever they wish and still maintain that healthy "Look" but they aren't truly "healthy" they are just thin. Would I love to be "thin" yes.. but I'd rather be healthy and know how to feed myself in order to maintain.  My goal isn't to get to where I want to be only to throw it all out the window because i don't need to "diet" anymore. I am not on a diet. I am changing my life. Slipping back into old habits is so easy to do.. it's slipping back out of them again that is the struggle. I promise myself to push on!  I will not settle for anything less than my best, and my best does not weight 209lbs! I will be back under 200.  I will be able to fit in a "normal" size wedding dress. and I will be healthy.

I will.

Bishop's Peak

There are some amazing hiking spots here on the central coast but I have never taken advantage of them since I never had the urge to be active.  I would have rather sat on the couch and watched tv or just wanted to handout drinking some beers with friends in order to do "fun" things together.

I love that all that has changed! I had a thought about hiking one day and decided to ask my friend if she wanted to do it with me one day. And of course she said yes since she is awesome.                   

After we had to park our car at the bottom of a huge ass street in order to even walk to the trail entrance   I was more than a little winded having just gotten to the entrance lol. 

Me and my awesome hiking buddy.

But you know what? I made that mountain my bitch! I not only made it to the top of the trail but I also climbed to the tip top over the rocks. It  felt great! Not only did I have a blast with a friend and see an amazing view but I also got one hell of a workout.

Working out doesn't have to be a chore. 

Have some fun with it!

Me at the top!

What a view...

ONE-derland I have Arrived.

My heaviest weight was right before I gave birth to my son in 2010

I weighed a whopping 264. 

I weighed 236 when I started thinking I seriously had to change something

232 I joined My Fitness Pal.

229 Found a great support network in a Facebook group.

(special thanks to Booty Camp and everyone that has encouraged me)

and as of this morning

199.4

I have reached my first goal.

I couldn't be more proud of myself and I can't wait to see the rest of the weight fall off. Losing weight IS possible if you just put the work in. 

They Fit!

One of the perks of losing weight is being able to go through your stash of old clothes that you threw in the back in the closet hoping that maybe just maybe one day you would be able to squeeze yourself back into that pair of jeans you loved so much.

Let me tell you I have had a very large stack of clothes piled up back there for years now. After pulling these bad boys out and trying them on this September I was disappointed to find I couldn't button them (obviously shown in the picture on the left.. yikes!)

So I took the picture then folded them back up and set them on my dresser telling myself it wouldn't take long! Fast forward to this month... I decided to try them on again and I swear I jumped for joy! Not only did they button but they buttoned easy! no froggy jumps, no laying down to shimmy into them and no fat pushing its way over the top.. They fit!! 

I have 3 pairs left that do not fit yet.. and I plan to be in them no later than new years! Then the real fun begins... shopping for jeans without crying in the dressing room. Oh yes! lol it's on.

Sicky

It's been 9 days since I have worked out..Normally I would feel like a fat cow right about now. But Luckily  unfortunately i've been sick this whole time so i'm still losing weight. I wish my energy level would just come back and I wish i could breathe. I also wish I didn't have to force myself to eat since I have no appetite at all. Hopefully this damn bug will get lost so I can get back to kicking ass...Oh the ups and downs of weight loss.

On a good note as of this morning I am 202.4.... which is SO CLOSE to my first goal of being under 200.. I haven't see that number since the beginning of my pregnancy.  I can't wait! as soon as i'm better i'm kicking it into high gear and getting shit done!

30 Day Shred..Round2 Day1

I decided to start the 30 day shred over...I figured I had great results last time I might as well give it another go! But i am taking Sundays off this round to give myself a day of rest per week.

I have to say starting this time was easier than last time.. but still not Easy. I still have to modify a few moves but for the most part I feel like I did great.  Best of all I felt great after.. and I plan on rocking the next 30 days of this!  Let's do it!

RoadTrip

Family road trip..yay! with a toddler.oh.. Lol I know I know i'm in for it. We made this same drive last year for thanksgiving and i'm glad we did since this time unfortunately, we are going down to San Diego, Ca for My fiance's grandfathers funeral. I'm hoping to still stick to eating well or at least small portions.. and maybe we will take jaycen to the zoo.. that will give me some walking and a good time for him.  I'm also thinking of bringing my weights since I will be the passenger so might as well do some curls lol I really don't want to gain over this trip so I hope I can stick to it!